A Week In Review

Well, another week has past.  It is true what they say..... time flies when you have a kid.  I remember when I was pregnant that everyone always made it very clear "not to blink" because time goes by so fast when your little bundle arrives and boy where they right.  We are about to celebrate Harlen's 2nd birthday and it is crazy to me that two years have past already.  It seems like yesterday that I was uncomfortable because I was "oh so pregnant" and anxious because I was about to meet my little bundle.  I will put together a post when we celebrate his birthday as a family on the 12th of February and with friends and family on the 16th.  We are looking so forward to recognizing out little guys birthday and seeing his face when we sing happy birthday to him. 

In the mean time, I thought i would do a photo dump of the past week or so with pictures that describes our days and what we spend them doing.



Harlen with his "girlfriend," Caroline. He walked her out of daycare holding her hand the WHOLE way to her car. What a gentleman.

Making brownies with Mommy!

 

Painting the deck, with a little water, while in our PJ's!  Why Not?!?

 

Cuddle Time with his best friend, Mongo (Bugee, BugaBoo, Meaty).

 

Daddy was out of towm this week so we sent him a sweet message that we put together during bath time.

 

Random picture, but it hit me like a ton of bricks the other day that my child no longer "fits" on his changing pad. He is getting so big.  (please excuse the junk on his dresser)

 

 

 

Chris and Hudson at 11 weeks old!

My boys!  All these men/boys have a piece of my heart.

 

Cuddle time with Colton while watching a movie and Papa and Grandmas on Friday night. (Btw, Colton is not in pain, in the picture below, he was showing his hatred for the flash)

 

 

 

The hubs and I got a wild hair to paint the Living Room, Foyer, Hallway and a couple other small areas.  The DIY project has started.  Hopefully we will get it done in a couple more days. Fingers crossed.

 

 

Harlen has become OBSESSED with play doh.  He loves to make pancake (flatted the dough out), cut it with the little yellow scissors you see in the picture and try to eat it.  Lovely :)

The "Fire Truck Song" is VERY popular in our house.  It is a book that this guy recorded himself singing the words to.  Harlen would listen to it 1,000 times a day....if we let him.

 

 

That is our week, for the most part.  Add in work and regular play, routine and responsibilites and you have an idea of what my week looks like.  I would not change our crazy life for anything. 

 

The Guilt Is Getting To Me!

When envisioning my life as a mom, like many other girls when growing up, I thought that I would be a mommy that met their kids when they got off the bus, did creative activity's and be that "cool" mom that was fun, full of life, always had surprises up her sleeve to help entertain the kids, had dinner on the table when the hubby got home from work and had a family life that was more like something you would see on an episode of Leave it to Beaver or the Brady Bunch.  Now that I am a mom, own a house, have two car payments, bills bills and more bills, a child that I want to give everything to that his little heart desires, and vacations that I want to take (but can never find the time to take), I am the farthest thing from a "stay at home mom."  I work an 8 to 5 job and get to only spent 2 days a week with my son and I HATE IT.  I am actually tearing up just thinking about all the time that I am missing with him at this age.  Time that I am never going to get back.  Time that I pray he will not look back on and think.... daycare teachers spent more time with me growing up than my mom and dad did (That may be a dramatic statement, but it is a true fear of mine).  Do I have a ton of guilt in me for being a working mom? You better believe I do.  I have guilt that keeps me up at night and makes me emotional to think about.  I know that being a mom that gets to stay at home to raise kids is the hardest job that their is, but I want it.  I want to see my kids wake up in the morning, eat breakfast with them, have play time in the yard together, cuddle with before nap time, do crafts with and make a ton of memories with. I want to be able to raise him every single day and not be his mommy on the weekend and share his time with someone else during the week. To give you a glimpse of our life, our daily schedule looks like this:

Monday through Friday:

• I wake up at 6:20am, after hitting the snooze button for 30 minutes (I am totally not the girl that jumps out of bed when the alarm goes off)
• Get ready and then grab Harlen out of bed at 6:50 to head to daycare (in his pj's). Harlen goes to an in-home daycare at the most amazing place ever.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE his daycare lady, Ms. Kim.  She has been an amazing stand in for me while I am away from him working.
• Harlen gets to daycare at 7:30am each morning and I quickly rush in, give him a kiss, wave goodbye and head out the door. 
• I return to pick him up around 5:30pm and then we head home for our 30 min ride.  Some days he wants to watch a movie and is too tired to be his energetic talkative self and then other days he wants to talk, laugh, point out trucks, planes and birds while we ride home (those are my favorite days).
• Once home, he plays while I prepare his dinner.  This is one thing that I need to work on because we do not get to eat dinner with him.  He eats dinner before we do because I do not have time to come home from work and cook a meal and still get him to bed when he needs to be.  HUGE BUMMER!
• After dinner, he takes a bath and gets ready for bed.
• Once in his pj's, hubby and I take turns reading a couple books to him and saying his prayers and then it is lights out at 7:30pm.

As you can see, I have a total of 2.5 hours a day with him. Within that 2.5 hours, we spend an hour in the car, 30 minutes with him eating dinner, and the remainder getting him ready for bed/bath.  The quality time is pretty much zero.  Actually, seeing it written down makes me want to cry (tears are starting to well up).  I am missing out on so much of his life.  What makes it even worse is that the hubs and I are busy on the weekends as well.. We try to catch up on everything that we can not do during the week like keep the house clean, get laundry done, keep the yard maintained, get errands ran and so forth and we really don't get to spend the quality time with him on the weekends that we want to.  Ya know, the typical stuff that everyone does when they are grownups. The vision of playing in the yard and watching him run around laughing and being a kid are typically shadowed by carting him from Target, Publix, Walmart, the Bank, and so on.  Placing my kid in and out of his car seat every Saturday morning/afternoon and watching him play with his toys while I scrub the bathroom is not the idea that I had in mind when I became a mom.  It is what it is and we get it done, but not without guilt. 


Moments I have missed out on:

Until next time.......

Ready, Set, GO!

Here goes nothing!
A blog?  What in the he** am I thinking?  Like I need one more task to add to my routine of being a wife, mother of a 2 year old and account manager in the corporate world, but..... here goes nothing.  I am going to use this blog to be able to jot down all the silly, sweet and funny things that my 2 year old does and says.  I have read many of random blogs out there, actually i am pretty obsessed with reading blogs, but have never gotten the courage to start my own.......until now.  My only wish is that I would have started this sooner.  When we, my husband and I, found out that we were going to become parents, I thought that I would be the perfect mom who kept up with baby books and never missed a single opportunity to record my sons life, but lets face it..... I suck at it.  Life gets so crazy some times that I am lucky if I remember to whip out the handy dandy phone to snap a picture.  That is one of the many flaws that I have on this crazy life journey that we call motherhood.  But it is a new year and I am going to start now. Here goes nothing......

A couple quick facts about Harlen James Wilson!

• Harlen will be (insert sad face) 2 years old on February 12th and is an amazing, adorable and sweet baby (I know, he is technically not a baby anymore, but i am not willing to admit that to myself). 
• We say that Harlen is going to be a future sports star because he is OBSESSED with anything sports.  Hand him a ball and watch out.  He has an arm like you wouldn't believe and it surprises me sometimes that he can throw and kick as well as he does.  Who knows, maybe someday we will be sitting in the stands of an NFL or MLB game rooting on our son. 
• He is in the high 80 to mid 90%ile on his charts (I will find out exactly when we go for his 2 year check up on February 16th).  He has always been a great eater and can knock back more food than I ever thought possible at times.  I swear that he is going to eat me out of house and home when he is older and growing like a weed.  All I know is that he is happy, healthy, and such a joy to be around.  
• He is actually talking now. Like really talking. His words are getting clear to understand and he definitely has an opinion. 
• He loves to watch movies like Nemo or Robots or anything that has Elmo in it.
• We are working on colors and numbers, which he is actually starting to get.  For some reason, he really loves the numbers 4 and 8 and right now, his favorite color is Blue! 
• His two best friends are his Papas and his girlfriend is Caroline (a little girl that he is smitten with from daycare)
• Harlen has been a mommas boy for the last couple years, but he is starting to come around.  He is realizing that daddy is really cool and fun to hang with so it has been a pure joy to watch the two of them play, laugh and rough house together. 
• Harlen is in bed by 7:30pm during the week (we slack on the weekends because we want to spend some extra time with him) and I yank him out of bed at 6:50am to head to daycare.  WARNING: I am sure that me being a working mom will be my next blog entry.

Okay, since this is probably the longest first blog ever written, I am going to end it here.  I have to leave a little to write about next time :)  Thanks for reading, if anyone is, and stay tuned till next time.